I Forbid the Banns! — page 363: what you’re looking at

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ON THE BEGINNING OF A QUEST. 353 loneliness came upon him. If she would only come back to him he would not insist on any conditions. She must come back—she must! Eventhough hehad sinned against her, she was a woman and she would forgive him. He was unworthy of her—he was a brute ever to have—no, not suspected her, only fancied that he had suspected her. He had been mad—mad—mad as no man had ever been before. ‘That jealousy had been madness—it had possessed ‘him all those days, making him incapable of reasoning. She had given up her pure life to him, and yet he had been jealous when other men had been near her. That was a monstrous thing, he felt. Let him but get her back, and he would compass her with his love so that her life would be © one long dream of happiness. ‘That is what some men think when their wives are dead. They usually marry again at the end of the year; but their new dream of happiness is not more enduring than the honeymoon. With all Julian Charlton’s reflections, he never enter- tertained the idea of the possibility of blame being attached to himself for having failed to protect Bertha from her own theories of life and of the union of a man and a woman. It never occurred to him that he was deserving of reproach for having made up his mind to possess her, although feeling in his heart that her theories—she called them principles—were founded upon a perfect knowledge of what man and woman should be, not of what man and woman are. He had come to perceive in the course of his life in the midst of various communities that, while many persons took a great pleasure in promulgating theories respecting the world to come, no large proportion of such persons considered themselves called on to make their own lives illustrative of the value of their theories. And yet, for the sake of possessing that girl, he had actually pretended to her that he believed that her theories EONMMICLYOOlKS EC)